Tuesday May 5th 2020

There's days I feel like writing, and days I don't.  Looks like things are going as they are until June, mos of the summer will soon be over and I can't bare the thought of that and not seeing my parents.

Awoke to the sound of emergency verhicles going past, sounded like police cars. I did a perscription for Lisa at no 11 this morning, I'm happy to help.  Dot my neighbour is in hospital as she's broke her leg, poor thing has breast cancer.  I met her brother who seems a nice chap, also we have a couple of new black birds visiting ther garden.  Lisa has called them Billie and Elsie, I hope the perigrins from the cathedral leave them alone this time.  

I caught my grill alight couple of days ago when I tried to cook some burgers, I finished them off in the oven.  I will have to use my George Forman machine now, as when I tried turning the grill on to do some fish fingers, my electrics flipped so my TV and heating went off.  

I went for a walk round St paul's yesterday, there's lots of rainbow drawings in people's windows.  I have two window stickers, but I haven't managed to put them up as yet.  I get that village feel when I walk round cathdral close, it's very quiet which I like.  I was watching a drama last night called isolation stories starring Sheriden Smith, she's a good actor it's a surprise she's not in films yet.  It was about a pregnant woman on her own during the lockdown (which must be a nightmare) who was contacted by a woman who had a violent parner, he caught her on the phone and snatched it off of her.  The pregnamt lady couldn't ringher back or help her because she had withheld her number, the call eneded with a lot of swearing.  Sadly a lot of demestic abuse it on the rise with this lockdown, there was a photo of some American ladies in the paper one had a shiner while another had a bloody nose.  

I went two years with demestic abuse, but my family aren't really that interested, I've tried talking to them about it but they don't listen and don't want to know which angers me.  My stupid dumbo cousin has already told me I was just to blame, what does he fucking know?  He's never been in a violent relationship, talks through his ass most of the time, Mr fucking know it all.  You can never know what it's like unless you have been in that situation, how frightening it is being trapped unable to move on and afraid for your life.

Apparently we mow have the highest death rate from the Coronavirus then the rest of Europe, doesn't surprise me with so many people flouting the law.  trying to sneak to second homes in Cornwall including Gordon Ramsey who's been seen everywhere, it's a wonder he hasn't caught it!  If your wondering who he is, he's a TV chef that swears a lot at people.  This disease is very cruel with people dying alone and reletives not being allowed to say goodbye or even attend the funeral, for fear of infection.  Just forgotten about, another satistic!