Thursday 9th July 2020

I got a lucky cat thing for the garden, I may get a buddah tommorrow; gardens coming a long so I hope I don't kill anything.  Fiona and Bruce (two perigrin falcons from the cathedral) flew over squalking loudly yesterday, their probably looking for thir lunch.  I notice the skies are noisy again with planes, bloody lorry came past my door at 4am this morning; the room (& my bed) shook as the driver tried to beat the lights!

I was a bit down in the dumps today as this week I would ave bin in Cornwall with my parents this week. This stupid predictive phone is driving me nuts, it keeps altering my sentences & adding unwanted words. I spend half my time deleting and clearing up all the spelling mistakes the phone has forced upon my message.

It's another day of nowhere to go, nothing to see, nothing to do etc. Thanks stupid Corvid-19, hanging on like shit to a blanket refusing to go away. I blame the stupid wet market in Woohan for forcing their dirty ways on the rest of the world.

I bet you I will get a message from someone defending it and saying "no it's not there fault" blah bloody blah. Well who else chose to eat bat soup, stuff kittens into a cage for their meat? Hang dogs upside down like beef cows?

This week could b the last time we spend together as a family. Instead whe're stuck at home doing nothing, s*** scared that if we go out we will become infected, and end up struggling to breathe in hospital on a ventilator. Where no one can visit you, and you die alone surrounded by beeping computers and wires.

The NHS have done a fantastic job, but all of this could have been avoided if the government had acted quicker. The WHO warned parliament last year that this was coming, (probably why it's called Corvid-19, not Corvid- 20) Did they take any notice? No. instead they decided to concentrate all their efforts on brexit instead of people's health.

I'm sorry if it sounds bad in places, but I'm just airing my view. It seems like another lifetime that I was in Cornwall with my family, I don't know really it will ever happen again.

Sometimes I think about the good old days when I was a kid again, when everyone was still alive. Life was endless then it felt like nothing would change & things would go on forever. No one worried about diseases or death, I just went out & had adventures without a care in the world. The only thing I brought home was grass staines and happy memories.

Now most of my relatives have gone to where I can't follow, not yet anyway. There somewhere where the sun always shines and it's always summer with no disabilities or pain.

For now and must stay behind as I grow older as they still stay young, s distant memory of a life long ago

Apparently there are now reports of the black death in China.  Great!  NOT.

I watched a film about Albert Pierpoint on Sunday who was the last hangman in Britain. It's a very good movie, but with some sad and horrifying scenes. One man practically ran to the rope as he wanted to 'get it over and done with', while there was the scene showing Timophy Evans and Ruth Ellis.

I've taken my bike in to be mended as the casette and the chain are knackered,  I've been told that I may not get it back until Mid August because they have a back-log.  They were closed during the lockdown which is surprising, as lots of nurses and Dr's use bikes etc.