Saturday 15 Aug 2020

I might have to go to Newquay on my own next year, parents are not sure wot they are doing, & mum has too look after dad. So when I visit Padstow, there be no one to talk too or share my adventures with, I'll be so lonley. 

I don't want to go with Alan because he's grumpy and causes unnecessary arguments over nothing in particular. He seems to get a kick out of upsetting people, I go away to get away from the problem not take it on holiday with me.

Penny, I feel more like her carer then her friend, and she has challenging behaviour I could do without. My anxiety levels are at an all time high, without it being made worse by bad moods because I won't do want they want.

Being autistic makes it that harder for me, a lot of people think I'm wierd, but I'm better off traveling alone.

I'm hoping to do a coach trip to Tenby in 2021 but I don't want Alan coming along as he'll ruin my experience with his controlling attitude. This is my adventure, and no one's going go ruin it for me; I have to find myself.  Ive never been to Tenby before, infact I've never visited Wales to be honest, my aunt says it's lovely and I want to see for myself.

Panic at Calais in France, some paid exorbitant prices to get on ferries & trains. One couple even chartered a boat, 2 weeks quarantine Wen they return after 4am.

Had to get bus up parents today as it was wet, some market stalls didn't turn up.  I'm not a saint myself but I do try to help people.